Don't know what to do.

The room is so empty, the sheets areso cold, the touch of the wall isn't as smooth as your skin. I'm missing the past, I'm missing your presence. I don't know where to go, where to turn, I don't know what to do. The tabble has no one on the other side, the couch is too big, my heart is so full of emptyness. I'm missing you.
I'm faking my body, my brain, everyone. Those who see me, will see me as I always was. Those who look into me won't see anything but a lack. The sun isn't as shinny as it was once, the wind is agressive, the clouds cover my eyes, and so I can't look into the sky and search you. The streets are huge, don't know how to cross them, the river is now only water with no reflex, the bridge is just steel and wood, there's no one coming out o f the sea, there's no one tanting in the sun, there's no one lied in the grass.
Only pictures, draws and memories remain. You have gone and I don't know if you will ever return one day as you were, I don't know if my arms will be filled by you, if my shoulder will support you, if your heart will be together with mine again. My hands don't have a matching pair, pairs are starting to disapear, the hole in the sky is starting to close, my work is dying. I can't keep digging and planting pairs on my own. I can't. And I don't know what to do. I've seated in a rock and now I'm just watching everything getting dark, everything losing hope to keep fighting. I don't know what else to do than watch. Cause I can't close my eyes and pretend it was a dream. It wasn't, it was life and now it's becoming a nightmare, a burden for I to stand.
My eyes don't see, my ears don't listen, my mouth doesn't speak, my nose doesn't smell, my skin doesn't feels, my soul ... I've losted and I don't know where she is or what she is doing.
I know that I shouldn't do this. But I'll ask you, please don't go, please stay with me.